LETTER TO THE BIG BROTHER

Conner

We are only days or perhaps moments away from watching you take on the official role of big brother.  The past 25 months with you in our lives has brought so much joy to your daddy and me.  You have taught us so much in these two years as we watch you grow, develop, and see your vibrant personality and energy come to life more with every passing day.  You are the perfect mixture of sweetness and out of control silliness.  You keep us on our toes everyday, every minute.   Your stunts and playful behavior are what keep the mood in this house light and filled with laughter.  Your little smile is forever printed on our memories.  I will never get tired of hearing your little voice come downstairs in the morning and greet me with a "hi, mom".  Your daddy and I are beyond lucky and blessed to have you as our son.

I want you to know that as this chapter of our lives closes and we enter a new season as a family of four, you are always so very special to your daddy and me.  You are the child that made me a mama first.  You led the path of teaching us through life experiences how to be parents and the child who stole our hearts before any other.  This transition may be hard on you, but I want you to know you will never be replaced.  I'm confident that even as I worry about how your life will be so greatly affected by this, you will rock at this big brother role.  You have been so good at loving on this baby belly (I will miss the countless times you ask to kiss this belly), but I know as you get to meet your little sibling you will share those countless kisses.  You have become such a great helper and Daddy's little sidekick that you will be an even bigger helper with the baby.  Over the months you have amazed me at your recognition for baby items which has only made me even more excited about growing our family.  I know you will be so exceptional as a big brother that there will come a day where you couldn't remember life as the only child.

These last few days with you have been nothing but precious.  There are so many times where this emotional mama just wants to break down an cry because these days of one on one time with you are quickly slipping away.  I remain excited though as we soon get to watch your relationship with daddy and me stretch beyond us and develop with the littlest family member.  Until then, I want to freeze time for as long as possible.

I love you more than you could possibly ever know.  We have been spoiled the past 25 months of getting to know you and play with you one on one.  I wouldn't change that time with you for anything.  You were born for this role, and I know no other child could adapt as well as you will to welcome this new little life into our family.

You will always be our firstborn, daddy's sidekick and mama's little boy.

With all my heart

Mom