three.

Conner,

 

..And just like that, you are turning three.

 

I want to say I don't understand how this past year went by so fast, but deep down, I do.  This past year of life was a game changer for you with bringing another little boy into our family, but you, little man are meant to be a brother.  I watched from the front row as you transitioned from the early days of not wanting another little boy to share our attention into a little boy that makes sure that Linden is kept in the mix of our chaos. Dad's and my attention was split this past year looking out for the both of you, trying to soak in every changing detail between the two of you, and keeping up with you. I'm sad to think I missed little details of your life, but I amazed at the boy you are becoming.

 

Some of my favorite moments of this past year:

..Realizing that I am carrying on a legitimate conversation with you instead of simple words.

..Hearing you talk about things that happened weeks ago as your memory takes off.

..Watching you play with your toys and pretending with them.

..Potty training.

..Asking me if I'm okay after I hurt myself and then kissing my injury.

..Laughing uncontrollably at night every time I try to get you to go to sleep.

..Hearing you say, "Mommy you sleep with me?"

..You and Daddy building forts out of blankets and couch cushions.

..You telling everybody in the grocery store "HI!" You're not shy.

..Your first haircut.

..Watching you swim at the beach.

..Hearing you ask for Papa and Nana.

..Your endless love for your daddy.

..Driving the tractor.

..Helping me make coffee.

 

The moments are endless, but I know my memory will start to fade and some of these precious memories will get replaced with newer ones.  But, I will never forget holding you for the first time in the hospital.  I will never forget rocking you to sleep at night when you were a baby as you drift off only to open your eyes one last time and give me a huge smile.  I will never forget the look of your little boy smile and little boy laugh.  It is the most contagious thing on the planet. And your unruly curls on your head.

 

I have never met a little boy with as much energy as you. Daddy and I joke that you only need one cracker to give you enough energy to run laps around everybody else all day long. And it's true! You have two gears... 100% non-stop while you are awake, and recharging mode while you are asleep.

 

I can't even begin to imagine what this next year is going to bring for you, but I pray that you stay safe, healthy, and never lose that personality that I love so much. 

 

With all my heart, I love you.

Mom